I have been examining my conscience, as is my wont at this time of year. I think perhaps because it is the season of peace and good will to all man, I start thinking about it more. I have struggled this year with forgiveness and held onto anger but I’ve decided to let it go, for my own health more than anything and, as a parent I think it’s important to set the example for my children.
There have been a few people who have provoked my ire this year; Prod is one of them though he’s not really harmful, more an irritant. I have had various discussions with friends; religious and non religious about forgiveness. People make mistakes, it is what makes us human and I think that we learn from the mistakes that we make but that we can also learn from the mistakes that others make. It is said that God (or whatever you believe) doesn’t send you challenges that you can’t handle and I have certainly come out of this year stronger and wiser. I no longer let people walk all over me and i’m not afraid to stand up for myself anymore. So I suppose that in a weird way, as hard as it’s been, I am thankful for a difficult year.
We all do stupid things at some point in our lives. You never know what people are going through that could be making them behave like that. I am very black and white about things, it’s a terrible character fault and I need to remember that humans are grey; we all have grey areas. Life is never straightforward and people could have some terrible personal situation going on; or health worries; or if they’re pregnant or have just had a baby their hormones could be making them completely crackers (it takes two years to get back to normal – whatever normal is – after having a baby, did you know that?); or it could just be PMT; or the menopause (rather female specific there). Or maybe they’re just smoking crack or are inherently a terrible person, in which case there’s not a lot you can do about that except maybe say “STOP SMOKING CRACK/BEING A TERRIBLE PERSON”.
Alexander Pope said “To err is human; to forgive, divine” so I’m going to forgive people; I’m even sending Prod a Christmas card.