It’s been so long since I wrote that I don’t really know where to start so I suppose i’ll start again.
My name is Natalie, i’m 36 and married to David, who works away all the time. We have three sons aged 9,7 and 2. My Mother just died, my Dad died nine years ago. I wondered if this made me an orphan but Google informs me that the cut off point for that is 18. I do feel there needs to be a word for an adult who has lost both parents though because despite having a wonderful family, I feel orphaned and though I still have Aunts, Uncles and Cousins from both my parents’ sides, it’s not the same as losing both your parents. I can’t quite describe it.
My parents were hoarders, so i’ve inherited a lot of stuff to deal with as well as a house that i’m not quite sure what to do with; my family home where I grew up. It is not the right home for us as a family but it also feels like the last deep tie that I have now, almost like another parent and as such, I am loathe to part with it.
I have blogged for the last nine years on and off. I stopped blogging because I was too buys parenting my children and caring for my Mum. Being sandwiched I called it. She was ill for a long time, she had COPD or Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease, basically her lungs were buggered because she smoked, though you CAN get COPD without having been a smoker so don’t assume that everybody with COPD has done it to themselves.
I wanted to start blogging again because I always found that writing helped me to make sense of things and I really feel I need that in this new and strange phase of my life.